The Swimming Pool

i imagine walking into the swimming pool,
sinking my body into the body of water.

it is midnight. the water glitters as if someone has thrown the dust of diamonds onto its surface;
drawing me to the edge of the pool. my toes are getting licked by the coolness of the water.

the night is balmy.it swathes my skin like a soft cashmere.

i take in the smell of the universe. i let it fill up my every pore and to remind myself that i am still alive.
even though i am already dead.

slowly, meticulously, i peel of the layers of my clothes.
i'm leaving behind the past.

i am surprisingly clear headed. i am accutely aware of my surroundings.
the drawing of curtains; people getting ready for bed
the muted ticks from the engine of a car; cooling down

focus

this will be over in a matter of minutes

i lay them down in a neat pile
so that they will know that i was in no rush
and that i was not insane

goodbye happiness that brings sorrow
goodbye love that causes pain
goodbye good that gives way to bad

i let my ankles dip into the water

its delicious temperature makes it all too easy
before i know it, half my body is submerged.

i am waist deep and away from eternity

i allow myself to have one last look at my mortal environment
it was good while it lasted, but it hurt too much.

finally, i bring my head under the surface
i hold my breath.

15 seconds
30, 45
my lungs feel like they're burning

as i came from the elements
let me return to them

goodnight and goodbye world...